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  • The Title

    December 27th, 2022

    Stories – narratives of things imaginative, sometimes facts, mostly distorted to comfort the ears oblivious to the nature of randomness and often without clear pathways to closures, always eventually have titles. But before we reach to the point where we call them as eventual, the events that actualize the process and the end must be understood. Relating it with life, might not cover the conversation that I’m trying to make, so I’ll take the route of making you go through the process of how we build a narrative or a story rather for the sole purpose of making it worth listening to.

    You can think of a story as a rainbow, or the thought of having an ice cream, perhaps even an eye contact. The only thing common to all of these examples is – thread of events, small flashes of highly coordinated events, imperceivable to human eyes, but felt by triggering neurons, eventually us. It’s as if, you have the harness but that can only give you control over how you glide or maneuver, but for you to have an experience you’d want to remember, you’d also need the winds to be in your favor.

    The urge to remember, and re-live are the steppingstones to finding a story worth telling. You obviously won’t like to hear how I walked along the bank of a nearby river and reached the other end of my joy walk. But If I tell you, that along the way I could hear the chirps of migratory birds filling the wilderness with cries of happiness and inclusiveness, and that it made sense why bonds are more important than we think of them as, you’d want to listen more. The connection between you and me, is that we relate – not necessarily to the events that happened to us, but more on the way we all perceive, and crave emotions of all sorts.

    Once you have the story, you most probably would get carried away with it, or even around it, because you like the idea of remembrance of thoughts you’re willing to think more on. This is the point where, most if not all writers, slowly start losing the connection between the readers and themselves. From that point onwards, it’s selfishly more about what they want to see rather than what they want to tell. The harnesses become ineffective and so does the whole point of thinking about it.

    Now, if you just step back, a little bit, you’d see that losing control over a narrative, a thought is a lot easier than holding it to let it become a story. The demerits with stories, it always feels complete when it has an end, while in reality it’s just the beginning of another one, which we controlled for the sole purpose of not draining out all the pages in the world, like this one. This one’s titled “The Title” because eventually all stories have one.

  • Technology as a compliment to ideas or vice versa?

    October 29th, 2022

    Sitting in a cubicle of area 4ft by 4ft, hearing the various discussions related to how best a solution could be optimized, discussions on algorithms and their time complexities, deliverables and deadlines, days and days of project planning, and implementation, I can’t help but think on the very basic ideas of why technology came into picture in the first place, and how the majority is devoid of conceptualizing new advancements, rather blindly running to achieve ideas seldom comprehended.

    Technology – as defined by Oxford is the application of scientific knowledge for practical purposes, especially in industry. Of late, this has reduced to “scientific knowledge” only for people who are capable of understanding, learning and growing in and from it. Be it Civil Engineers, braving weathers and research to keep the lands separated by deep waters, or Computer science graduates, writing tons of lines of code to keep the bridges between humans afloat, the focus lately has been more on how best the bridges can be built, polished and looked after rather than why bridges were conceptualized in the first place.

    Here’s an example, a young scholar/graduate when joins any company/industry is expected to have the knowledge of how certain technologies can be best used, specialists focusing only the areas where fragments of a big picture idea, gets implemented. By the time they’re rebellious enough to challenge the norms, the big picture they worked on either already gets shelved or is overshadowed by another big picture, they aren’t expected to understand, at least that’s what is expected of them, and serves everyone above and beyond. In the end, the person is very well experienced to understand big picture broken down into small ideas, and how best to implement it. But did he get a chance to challenge the existing systems, or ideate in the first place? I guess some do, but most don’t. They’re busy trying to fit in the big tunnel industries have crafted for themselves, shaping themselves into molds without the ability to have choices.

    The change can’t really be immediate, not even the discussion of getting the same done would, but believe it or not, we’re losing out on the bright minds and the absurd-but-worth-discussing-on ideas they might have regarding your company or the product you’re working on. Now, I am sure people would come up with examples for inclusivity and all those forums where people can put in their ideas, but I guess everyone is aware of how complaint/suggestion boxes work. What we need is, a comprehensive overhaul of the way we perceive any worker, only as a specialist to their particular job, or a thinker who can come up with ideas that can benefit your business more. A counter argument would be, that businesses have thinktanks and people who are there to ideate and take decisions and given the experiences those are the best possible chances of solutions, and also involving your whole work force for all the solutions would be tedious, costly and time ineffective, only positive would be that you have a solution thought upon by 10 times your competitor, with most of the possible faults in the “big picture” already thought of, and addressed.

    There could be many ways to address this, one being the early alignment of employees with the core working of your company objectives and opening up platforms and portals for them to put their ideas into, or involving them early on in the discussions, and having a mandatory review/plan the case studies/challenges company went through, throwing it open for them to get solutions of already solved problems. But the main thing is, to let go of the mindset of specialties devising only good solutions. We did not have degrees when we first came up with the wheels to transport our things.

    Definitely, knowledge of technology is a plus, but technology should be used as tools to compliment the ideas, not the other way around.

    Disclaimer: The above writeup is based on ideas/thoughts and is purely reflective of author’s personal views.

  • In search of you

    January 16th, 2020

    It takes visuals to remind myself of you. I seem to be forgetting you. It’s a good thing, forgetting past which does not make you feel the way you want to in the present. The distraction was dreamy, I mean who does not want to dream about happinesses not achieved yet? It makes you want more, more importantly putting in more efforts to get it just right. It was tough, replacing you with the love, wait! Do I really know what is love actually? Is it holding hands while you roam in the public with the fingers criss-crossed like the crossroads and you don’t feel the congestion in them? or Is it looking into someone’s eyes apparently long enough to understand the anatomy of the eyes and still wanting to look at it, even when you hate biology? or Is it having goosebumps in the middle of the night, writing about you? I clearly don’t have a vision to define it. apologies!

    Of all the perceptions I’ve had till date of you, I guess “you” in specificity is just the me I saw while it was still with you.

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    It moves slow, the buildings when I travel, hoping to let the obvious thoughts stay a little more, yeah the ones you never really intended to have in me, psychotic love, what’s wrong in naming it something people are probably scared of? At least the definition would stay, the same in everyone’s minds. They’re losing it, the meaning of love, by naming them with those crossroads(hashtags). It’s more congested, their feelings with the urban verses. They get too sad to be called depressed. It’s a phenomenon now. It’s not real, falling in love. It was never meant to be.

    If you’re to understand love, you need to understand why you feel what you feel when you arrive at a place familiar to you, or smell a dish you once never confessed to have loved, or feel the sunshine with the right amount of ultraviolet content comforting your eyes.

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    I guess I am still searching for you in everything not you, because it’s not you for sure.

    Photo by Tobias Aeppli from Pexels

  • Indian Railroads – A tale of romance and life

    October 24th, 2023

    Sitting in the aisle seat of the Howrah-bound Shatabdi Express, and wondering if romanticising about the scenic countryside that Indian Railways makes you go through, if put into words, would even justify the elation it offers, I finally decided on penning the words, after a long pause that I had as writer’s block. While one would definitely think, that the occasional stops disturb the flow of thoughts, and untapped imaginations, They actually serve as a pitstop to the plethora of possibilities.

    With railroads, you won’t really find any dumb moments. One moment you’re looking at a kid catapulting himself into a makeshift swimming pool meant for irrigation, and the other moment you’d see him pushing his friend, and the next moment, they both swim and laugh in the end. Indian Railroads, would give you stories, as a reflection of past, and a reminisce of what you were once. Stories of romance, friendship, childhood, life. All that you think to have forgotten in the racing life to the death of yours.

    Railroads are like the meditations you don’t opt for but never knew you needed badly.

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    Of all the modes of transport, the reason why Indian railroads always stick with you is not because of the fact that they are medieval and run on the same tracks, It is because It has grown with you. With your habits, with your age, with your interests. From counting the fading sleepers when the train hits speed, to getting lost in the thoughts of them as the country passes by, It has seen you, and you have seen it being the quietest vocal friend you could ever have had.

    Railroads don’t leave you a lot of stories that you’ll remember after the journey, just like the nirvana of the Vista dome when the train swiftly cruises between the night lights to the darkness, like a flare of hope you were waiting for long. I’ll leave the rest for you to remember, it’s yours too.

  • I miss my country

    April 16th, 2022

    There’s too many historical references, that could tell you why harmony is the only way forward to a better nation. I am not here to explain or give relatable evidences to them. Today, as I write this piece sitting on my couch, occasionally switching tabs of social medias, every other hour, I see news clippings, which tell me that something is just not right. My conscience, it’s been restless these few days.

    I remember, when I used to be a kid, a decade ago. We had to wake up at 5:30 AM in the morning for school. It started at 6 am. The time I woke up, there was a nearby mosque and the Azaan used to be the first thing I would hear, by the time we left, The Gayatri Mantra would be played in the nearby temple and we all just kept talking about how the Pokemon episode was of the previous day. We used to study at a convent school, and It is common to have Jesus Christ, Mother Mary, Mother Teresa as pictures, statues, as references (as our teachers were christians). We did sometimes mock them though, not because of their religion, but because we were mischievous, we always found it hard not to, just like we mocked almost everyone else.

    By the end of the day, we’d have seen and blessed by 3 different religions, Sikhism was not practised very widely at my place, but when I moved to another city, It became one of the beautiful parts of my day. The halwa at the end of the day in gurudwara is something you’d definitely love about Sikh Religion. Every Ramadan, I used to be excited not because I was practising Islam, but the fact that my locality suddenly was filled with lachhas, and dip that in milk and you’d not taste a dessert tasting more delicious than that. There were many instances of me being a part of uncles breaking their fast, and man there’d be a lot of food, and I used to be excited.

    Come Durga puja, Diwali, Chhath Puja,Holi, we all used to gather and have the tasty delicacies our mothers would cook, festivals for us was more about eating good food, having a good time, and just fooling around with friends, and a lot of them.

    In all these years, I never thought that one day, the flags that flew high looking harmless, would become a symbol of fear, and I’m talking both sides. It’s sad that we instead of enjoying the diversification that India offers, food, culture, people we’re bringing all of it down, just because someone told us, that we should.

    I miss my country, the one which was filled with love, passion and brotherhood for each other. I’ll be holding on to my memories above, those are what makes me proud to be an Indian. The India of now, the one with hatred filled inside everyone’s head, is not something I am proud of. I love my country, and all of its people, and I miss it.

  • Decoding Life

    November 21st, 2021

    After 9250 days of my being into this life, I have begun to ponder upon the question that has bothered me the most of the days, pretty seriously this time, and I hope I can get an answer out of myself if I keep talking to you.

    Life – Is it just a biological outcome of two other lives, genetic conglomerate of wanted and unwanted characteristics? or are we much much more than what we are born with?

    To answer your unasked question, on why this has to be a question in the first place, we are what we are, and we will be what we are meant to be – Humans – they are always all ears on a different way of looking at their life, something that can give them purpose, a meaning as to why everything is the way it is, and will it always be something that they cannot really control. The slightest sight of power over one’s lives, gives one’s thoughts of getting it a push they can’t control. It is human nature, to prevail if they can, to conquer if they can, to own if they can, to be everything if they can.

    Coming back to life, and all the decoding of it. Life – for most is a leisure. They don’t really get why they have it in the first place, until it is taken away from them. That is the moment it becomes a necessity. For humans – they are unintelligible beings claiming to be intelligent for ages, yet trying to figure out the why’s and how’s. At least they’re trying, you’ll say. Is it what it is? Trying? Trial and Error? You learn at every point of time, people, surroundings , emotions. At least that gives a perception of you being in control. You own your mistakes, failures and you conclude that maybe everything was indeed in your control and you left it a mess, was it?

    There have been instances, in my life where I tried to be in control but still it was not. Is the acceptance of not being in control, truly a control of your life? I’m sure it liberates you from the thoughts – like these and helps you to move on with the materialistic or un-revealed obvious necessities but the question still remains, are you really in control of your lives.

    For a perfect encryption, though nothing really is perfect, you need to have two keys – public and private. The public key encrypts the data and the private key is used to decrypt it. In the case of life – we seem to have our lives encrypted for sure but the private key is overshadowed by your urge to use the public one. The urge to be like someone else, to be something that is already existing, to be someone you envy, to be somewhere you fantasize. The private key lies inside of yourself, and maybe this is the reason why most people don’t figure out what it is that they want, what they really are.

    We have come near to conclusion but the question remains, is it the conclusion that I just made up so that I can put my thoughts to rest for now? Did I even convince you into this? Is it true? Does that mean that I am in control of the interpretation of my thoughts, yet not in control of when to have them. That again brings me back to the question I asked – are we really just a part of the mess of genes, being carried forward without control, just a mess and nothing else?

    Well it does not really make sense every time but will talk again – because this right here the conversation between you and me makes sense, even if life doesn’t.

  • Social media – A House Arrest?

    November 19th, 2018

    Let us ask ourselves a question, why was social media created for? To connect people, from distant places, get us contacts, friends, potential life partners, dates, etc etc. basically, connecting people was the main motive behind the social media. This started from emails, social networking sites, media houses, online streaming, and here we are reading blogs too. These all are examples of social media, how two people, unknown with no physical contacts, no friendship, no relationship, get to know each other and connect. Everything is fine, seems like a big fat happy fairy tale. But like every fairy tale, there is a negative part to it too. I’ll take you through this one by one, from minute to huge.

    1. Ever noticed the changing format of your emails, how they’ve changed according to the format of your operating system? They’re customizing your view, according to their choices. You seem to like it because, it’s better than the previous. But actually, you’re getting trapped in an ecosystem that is luring into thinking you’re having the best for yourself.
    2. Not enough to convince you, ever checked their terms and conditions and how  every message of yours is being surveilled according to their ‘standards of living in a community’. They’re making your life better, fine agreed. But, isn’t freedom more important and beautiful than the tasty pizza in a house-arrest?
    3. The ad industry has shifted totally to digital, meaning a handful of coders, are controlling the way your minds react to brands, exactly how many times, you need to see that particular brand of shoes such that the next time you hear ‘shoes’ you remember ‘ABC Shoes’.
    4. Every wondered, why most of them are free? You’re giving them your personal data, a kind of wealth they can never acquire by buying stuffs, but only by trust.
    5. Social media is a country without borders, democratic or non-democratic, I haven’t been able to figure it out yet. I’ll let you know, if this post doesn’t gather any unnecessary attentions.

    Your question, now that I have told you everything, you’ve instilled a fear in you, what should you do? Try to remain a paranoid. Feed only what you think is required to get your job done. Know that you’re the master of your own life, and don’t let them change that. The humanity doesn’t need another GOD to govern us. We’re happy being free.

     

  • A journal of my strange mind

    September 11th, 2018

    This is the first time that I’ll be writing exactly the things that come to mind, without improvising anything. It is blank now, like white, cloud white. I can see the clouds, now, then the blue sky, and slowly I see the green patches on the ground. It is beautiful. It is like the hobbiton. I can see Gandalf, he is waving at me. Just in case, you did not know, I am descending like iron man here, No! I don’t have the iron suit on. It’s more like the Sherlock’s overcoat that he wore every time he went out to solve any mystery.

    I can see Finch, from the person of interest. What the f**k is he doing here? He is a computer scientist, not a farmer or a magician. They line up for my welcome. I descend, with a thud, well it’s not been too long with the overcoat, comeon it’s 6ft 4-5 in long, how do you expect a 5’7” to fit in it? I had to fall, I’m not a beast. Well keep the beast aside for a while, the moths freak me out.

    They’re discussing something on saving this planet. They say I’m the chosen one. How the hell am I the chosen one, I barely eat 2 times a day, and I’m probably the thinnest of them all. They say, it’s written, and I ask where. There’s a book, like the one you see in Splitsvilla, hard-bound, almost un-understandable language. God! Why do they write so beautifully, that the letters don’t mean themselves, but something else. The letters are like, a painting in themselves, lines from east to west from the directions all along. It’s like writing japanese or chinese with the those long brushes dipped in dark ink. Ah! There he is Po! I should have thought that it’s his work. Po is good, he helps me translate what he has written, he is just like me you know, I have very bad handwriting, and I often get summoned for this reason by my teachers.

    The book said, ” Abracabra bla bla bla bla bla” , well the little mouse master from Kung-Fu Panda, quickly decoded it for us.There is a mountain that we need to scale, possibly the Mount Everest, I guessed, and I was right, unluckily. There had to be a plan, I thought, or atleast I should cheat. What? I said right? There had to be plan, they say I’m the chosen one. You can’t leave leadership whenever you feel like, oh that’s what I have learnt in my college till now, we will talk about it someday later.

    It’s evening and I’ve eaten just bournvita, when I left for the “dream”. It all started when I was watching ” The Magicians TV Series, and what do you expect, It was 3 am. I had to let it flow. You know that “it” thing. It’s always in my head, imaginations that just keeps me occupied. Wait did I just say imaginations? Damn it! I’m back to this human world. I got to go, I see my friends coding on codechef, God I hate leaving this world. I’ll be back, they say I’m the chosen one. I’ll be back.

  • Relevance #justiceforasifa

    April 14th, 2018

    Guess why am I here? another article on #justiceforasifa.

    I am not going to say anything new, or anything that you have not yet read before. All I am going to add is a few more questions. For people who don’t know who Asifa was, and why are we talking about her.

    http://gulfnews.com/news/asia/india/asifa-bano-this-8-year-old-s-rape-and-murder-is-a-horror-story-beyond-sexual-violence-in-india-1.2204423

    Question 1 : Is Asifa’s case really relevant to you, as a non-Muslim?

    Answer:

    This is a harsh question, isn’t it? Like you are a citizen of India, who on Earth will think that an 8-yr-old getting raped in your own country is not relevant to you. So we have ‘Yes’ as an answer right? Oh, I forgot to mention, she was a Kashmiri, and most importantly a Muslim. I think we need the feature of unsending responses like Whatsapp here, right? Oh! We have more questions. I am no one to judge. The next one is for everyone, don’t get disheartened.

    Question 2 : Is Asifa’s case relevant to you at all?

    Answer:

    This will be an interactive one. Where are you right now? home or office or <just-a-place-we-don’t-need-to-know>?  What are you doing? <pick-any-verb> and, you’re reading this article. Because it someway slipped into your newsfeed, and like any article, you’ll share it, remove it after 24 hours, to show solidarity towards the issue. Am I judging you? Yes! because most of us actually woke up after seeing the facebook post. If you read newspapers in India, you’ll see news clippings, of at least 4 rape cases daily, all on page 3-4. You don’t find them on cover page. Comeon! TRP? you haven’t heard of the term? Whole world works on this principle. More is the popularity of the issue, more is the mutual gain. I was never here with answers. Just questions. Stopped doing your “some-ing”? Now Asifa is relevant. She must be happy.

    Question 3 : Did you really ask these questions from yourself?

     

  • Worldly Paradox

    March 25th, 2018

    “All the world’s a stage”.

    You know why did I stumble upon this specific phrase from Shakespeare’s long list of quotes? It’s because this is on the top of the list of imaginations meeting reality.

    Before I ask you, let me ask myself. Am I acting to be what I am, or am I what I never wanted to be? Sometimes, I find myself in a paradox. Starting from the end, and then again reaching to the start. There are certain locked down doors, inside me, which don’t allow my conscience to judge me for what I am. It’s like, I am fixed, I can’t break those chains. I can’t let myself down. I can’t allow myself, to be what I never thought of myself. But in this course of time, even I , myself forget that, where there’s smoke, there’s fire. If the thought is taking over my mind, It has to have a foundation somewhere, however deep it may be.

    But then, before I answer my own questions, I look around for examples, with suspicion, as if cheating for the answer which I should have been prepared for. This brings me back to the first line of my paragraph, and every night, and I sleep judging myself.

    But, this was not supposed to have a perfect ending. The story does not end here.

    The search for the truth, led me to the conclusion that once Shakespeare, imagined, partially. There exists another self, a version of our own, inside our body, living parallelly. You don’t choose to talk to it, you don’t choose to change its decision. All you do is, request to believe you. Believe, that there’s nothing wrong with you. Till you keep lying to yourself, you will never win its trust. Like I said earlier, the paradox. It’s all a paradox. A bigger paradox.

    And till that paradox gets solved. We all are actors, but this world is not a stage.

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